Hidee Ho! If you want something you will need to go after it, it is not going to come after you. Whether it is juggling, running, eating well, finding a lover that meets your requirements, dancing, listening, writing, cooking, loving, exercising, or anything else, you will have to actually do something towards it in order to see any improvement in it. It really is that simple. We make things so complicated when they really are not. I know that there may be years and years of layers of perceived failure or habits that support all that you would like to rid yourself of. There may be a life that you live now that would have to change dramatically if you were to begin to do what your heart truly longs to do. I know that we get so addicted to the familiar, to our misery that changing it, even to gain all the joy in the world, seems daunting and less appealing than staying put. Truth is, you are going to need to do something at some point whether you go willingly or kicking and screaming, whether you initiate the change or the change initiates you. Change is coming.
You will have to work, sometimes really hard at whatever it is that you have asked to have in your life. You may need to do things that aren't fun, that scare you, that are downright challenging; and you will need to do these things repeatedly. At some point you will have to write over what was the norm for years and years and years. The thing is, once you begin taking steps towards what things you really want in your life, you will find the world bending to help you reach your goals. You will find support in ways you never dreamed, when you are serious about changing your life. What was there all along but ignored, due to lack of desire, willingness or simply being asleep will become opportunities. You will be given choices to keep moving forward toward what you desire or to stay in the same place that you are familiar and comfortable in. You might find that as soon as you make a choice to go after your dream or shift something to finally reach a goal an opportunity to leave things as is becomes sweeter. This is only a test. Testing you to either stay put or truly go after what you say you wanted. You always have choices… you are never stuck. Will you buy in to what you want or play it safe?
Now, when you ask for it, it will come. I am giving you fair warning. When you want something to happen for you it will… it is up to you to say yes to it however. Just because you ask for the universe to bring to you something you want, you still have to show up to receive it and then take it with you and use it. Just because you have lost a bunch of weight, gotten the job of your dreams, become a juggler with a small but fantastic circus doesn't mean that you won't have to put into it what you did before you made it to this point. Until your new choices are just your ways of being you will have to work, focus, intend, and believe every day, every moment that it is not only possible but it just is. Until your new habits become as normal as the life you had before you will need to put energy into them. You will need to be purposeful and deliberate and dedicated to yourself, your goals and your dreams. It took you a lifetime to be solidly miserable in certain ways, or unhealthy or unlearned in the things you want to know… give it a while before what you want becomes what you are.
Let there be fear, trepidation, lack of motivation and do it anyway. Let there be concern, worry and consternation and keep moving forward. Let there be change and wonder around it, let there be the curiosity of the unknown. Let there be a humbling, an understanding that everything must change. Breathe, open your eyes and keep moving. Your work will pay off, your life will improve, your change will come.