Hiya, So you are going along and everything seems ok and then, WHAM, someone or something comes into your world and then everything changes. You have feelings you've never experienced, you do things you never thought you would, you are spinning, spinning… and then you figure out some way around it, some way to either live it, leave it or make it normal. It happens all of the time with love. You fall in love, you go nutso feeling and doing things that you never had before, feeling like you are invincible and then, after some time it becomes your normal. The funny thing is that we tend to forget that we don't know all of ourselves in the least. It is a bit like goldfish memory (though that theory has been disproven, goldfish do remember things so those small tanks are torture), we actually think that we know how we would or wouldn't behave, even after surprising ourselves on a regular basis. I mean really, at some point in your life you have done something you never thought you would and you have made it a part of your existence.
Throughout our day we talk to ourselves constantly. There is almost always a dialogue that is going on in that head of yours. Now, what are the voices saying? Well, they comment on this or that and judge that and this and decide that they know. That is one of the most important things those voices do for you, they tell you what is. Honestly, the voices are working against you most of the time. They cause a lot of confusion, drama, stress and fear. They tend to tell you that something is one way or another and you tend to believe those voices. Think about this seriously: what have your voices told you and been right about; wrong about? I would say that they are wrong most of the time because they like to operate on fear. Even though the percentage of correct decisions/observations the voices make is low, we still consult those voices. It is a partnership that doesn't seem sound. Rarely are the voices ones of curiosity… rarely do we remind ourselves that anything could happen and after it does we might actually like it and want to continue experiencing what we once thought was unappealing, unsavory or beneath us.
What if the voices grew quieter or we didn't pay them attention or we reminded us of what was actually happening instead of what could? What if you were open to the possibilities in life, you were aware that you didn't know what you would do in a situation you had never been in? What if you decided right now, that you are in progress, you are in a place of discovery and will be the rest of your life? What if you allowed yourself to be the growing and changing being that you are? What if you helped the voices tell you what would allow you to be at ease most of the time and open otherwise? You can, it is doable. Now, even when you work on those voices serving you, surprises will still happen. They won't shake your world the same way because you will be open to them, you will have known that anything can and will happen. It isn't hard, in theory, to train those voices… it takes time, desire and unrelenting discipline.
You are going to expand. You are going to incorporate more into your world than what is currently in it now. You will change, you will grow. Love will do it to you, life will do it to you, be open and enjoy.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G1A_uSEjTIQ - It's Oh So Quiet - Bjork :)