Hello there :) Are you afraid to get what you want? Seriously? Are you freaked out to actually see that what you want is possible? If not then why aren't you asking for it without reservation? If it isn't fear that is holding you back is it because you don't believe what you want exists?
Someone at some point wanted to fly. They thought, I want to fly like those squirrels or those lizards that have winged arms. I want to be able to jump off of a cliff and not die. When they owned that dream the dream was then able to come to fruition. Somewhere, someone wanted to talk to someone who couldn't hear… someone wanted to dance that didn't have legs, someone wanted to read a book without having to carry the book with them and an e-reader was born. It would seem, then, that what you dream can come true. Not dreaming would seem to be a sure way to not get what you want. Resisting a dream before you let it be born seems unproductive, in my opinion.
I always coach my clients to dream, just dream. You like salt and tasting different salts, cool. Wanna do that for a living? You can. You want to find a way to work bicoastally and work with people, ok, in what industry do you see yourself? Until you throw it out there the universe cannot get going making it happen! Everything is conspiring to support you! Until you put yourself out there how do you know what you are capable of? If you don't risk, if you don't jump you will never know what you are able to receive in return. If you never try how will you ever fly?
Look, if your issue isn't fear (even if you think it isn't it probably is) and it isn't doubt maybe you just don't know (which is fear). That is cool, no worries, you can not know for now. Sit, be, and open yourself up to your dreams, without judgement, without filtering. See what falls out of your heart. You may find your destiny. You may find yourself.