Hiya, Yep, the details matter. The details are the difference between I kissed a girl and I kissed my best friend's girl. The details are what make a story unique, interesting, fun and well a story. The details give things form and structure. The details make the whole, in reality. What are the details you focus on? What are the small points that you spend time fleshing out? How much attention are you paying to how you frame your thoughts? We all want our lives to be great but we aren't willing to put the energy into what would actually bring that greatness to us. Though the details make us up, shape our world, create our experiences, we have a hard time being detailed when we want to change our world and have different experiences.
The details change the picture. When you need to shift your thinking the details are the fastest most reliable ways of doing so… and the hardest. Changing your stories is a moment to moment process that can be all-consuming, if you are doing it correctly. You will have to be on your every thought, at first. Taking note, finding out what you are saying to yourself to create the feeling of uneasiness that you have grown accustomed to. You will have to "listen without prejudice" to all the voices in your head. You will need to let go of the judgment that you have about what you hear when you become aware. You will need to finally hear the barrage of insults that you inflict upon yourself, the limitations that you set up and the abuse that goes on in the background for ambiance. At first there may be shock, sadness, awe… keep listening, hear the details and then look around at your world, your life. See where you struggle, see where there is fear and pain. The inside terrorist is way more dangerous than anything that could happen to you on the outside. You cannot run away from yourself, you cannot hide from the attacker that lives within.
You are going to have to decide what story you would like to live. You will have to decide what words you want to hear, what feelings you want to predominantly experience. You will have to do the hard work. The moment to moment work. You will have to change the details. The best part is you can. You can totally shift your life by shifting the ideas you hold up as truth. You are worth the struggle, the relentless silencing of the voices you will have to do. You can and, if you are reading this, you are ready to.
Good luck on your journey of growth, change and opening to love.