Hello there, Pay attention to that voice, the one that isn't mean, the one that isn't abusive. That abusive a-hole needs to be ignored, and now. The voice that tells you to turn left instead of right, the voice that tells you to take a walk, to be still, to shut up. That voice that is trying to get you to calm down and pay attention, most of the time (sometimes that voice will say, "RUN" and you should, knees to chest, if you get my drift). The bottom line is, your intuition is calling and you would do well to answer the call.
When you know something right away (which is most of the time) and you talk yourself out of it… that is your 'knowing' at work. What makes you ignore it? Why do we second guess what we know to be true? Much of the time we are not aware that we are ignoring our intuition. Often we deny what we know because we don't like it. At some point we have to let go of our idea of good and bad and see things as information. When you judge something as one of two things you bring the other into existence. That is, bad exists because we have deemed other things to be good. Yep, it is our doing. So when we know something, we usually talk ourselves into whatever we feel makes the most sense for the reality we have decided to accept, instead of purposefully create. We have a concept of reality where there is good and bad, so everything gets filtered in that way… which means much of what is actually happening is absolutely ignored because we feel like it may not fit, or be good. Take away the judgement and listen to the information. Listen and feel for it. You are being given information all of the time.
How would your world work if you acknowledged what that first gut instinct, feeling, motivation told you? What would you learn about yourself if you paid attention to your knowing? How would you live your life if you listened to YOU? What would stay, what would go? What is stopping you from listening to what you know to be true for you? How do you begin to move toward being in sync with your voice?
The world is a miraculous, glorious place. The world is inside of you. You are amazing. Remember this, each and everyday. There is nothing you cannot accomplish when you accept that as fact.