"To regret one's own experiences is to arrest one's own development. To deny one's own experiences is to put a lie into the lips of one's life. It is no less than a denial of the soul." ~Oscar Wilde Good Day!
Are you a liar? Have you been honest every moment of your life? Have you denied yourself love because of lies you have told? I have lied, to others and to myself. I have been caught in lies, gotten away with lies and squashed my light because I haven't forgiven myself for some of the lies I have told. Because I know that I am a fantastic actor I keep myself in check. I am aware of that liar part of me that enjoys showing up and I give her tasks that are harmless to others and helpful to me. When you own who you are you become your greatest gift.
First and foremost when we judge we cut off knowledge; we distance ourselves from ourselves. Second, when we judge we oppress; we put ourselves down and create a deeper hole to climb out of in order to see light. When you lied you had a reason. It served you in the moment. That part of you that is capable of lying, stretching the truth or bending reality is probably a very handy part of yourself. Too often we run from what we are ashamed of and we lose the gift that experience has to give. When you deny any one part of you, you deny all of you. What you don't allow yourself to see about yourself becomes bigger until it gets the attention it needs. You will find yourself faced with the parts of you that you try to ignore or reject either in others or by you expressing it yourself over an over again. What your resist persists.
Owning your truth & your lies allows you to see patterns in your life a bit clearer. It also allows you to have more compassion and to be more connected to others in general. So many of us deny that we are capable of the very things we deem horrible, awful, terrible, sinful, shameful, etc. only to find ourselves in a situation where we are forced to go back on that judgement. The universe gives you all you need to learn about love and acceptance which can sometimes be delivered with a punch.
Instead of looking back at some of your behavior and recoiling in horror, how about letting the judgement go. See the action, delve into the reasoning you gave as to why you did what you did and see if that is true for you now. Does that make sense to you now, do you want to do it again? When you know what you can do, you can do it when you want to. You become the master of you… you become free.