To Die For
Hiya, I remember when I knew that there was something that I would die for… not a person, per se… but a cause, a belief. I remember seeing myself fighting for it, I had a future flash where I was standing in front of people who couldn't believe what I was saying, that I was telling them something that hurt their basic understanding of the world. I didn't back down, in this vision. I stood my ground and I communicated, as best I could, why this was such an important viewpoint… how it could and would change the world. When I finished viewing this flash I felt like I had stepped into my ruby slippers… like I was home. Everything changed and at the same time everything stayed the same.
When you find out what you are meant to do it can be overwhelming. You may wonder how you will get from where you are to where you are going. The steps may not seem obvious to you at first. The way reveals itself over time and is nothing that needs to be obsessed about. Finding your calling is like coming home to a place you have never been but know better than you know anything else. When I realized what I would die for I felt less like celebrating and more like taking a deep breath and moving forward. At the point where I accepted my fate I started to test out my new surroundings. I began seeing myself saying things that I wouldn't have said before, putting myself in situations that were familiar but responding to them in a completely new way. I took my ego out of the driver's seat and into the back seat. Ego is necessary but does not need to run the show.
Knowing that there is something bigger, something more, and that you are bigger and something more, takes the fear away. We usually feel fear when we feel small, when we feel lost. When you take the fear away you have love; lots of it, all of it that you can stuff into your soul and your pockets until it overflows and starts to drown those around you. When you figure out what matters more than anything, what you were meant to do and what you would be content finishing this experience of being human doing, you realize that everything was just to get you to this feeling, this knowing, this place that, in reality, is the same for everyone… You say potato I say love. One in the same. You will find that the only thing that makes sense to give over yourself to is going to be made up of love.
Love would be why I would die and why I will die. Love brought this experience as Aina about and will end this Aina experience as well. Love is what I will continue to teach to the masses, in its various aspects, and love is what we all are, where we originated from and what we will return to. What I saw was me, letting everyone know that we are all deserving, that we are all love, that we will have to begin to head that direction in order to bring about lasting change. I spoke up for the idea that the souls that sacrifice themselves to be hated in this world by incarnating as tyrants are just as beautiful as the ones who are the victims of the tyrants themselves. I fought for everyone to accept what is and be open to what is given in each moment. At some point we will learn that love, not punishment, brings about love and motivates where nothing else will. Until then I will work tirelessly to awaken others to seeing the divine in their fellow man and, more importantly, in themselves.
xo
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