Hiya, I know all about refusing help. I know all about wanting to "do it all on my own." When I was a teenager I realized that my parents weren't that interested in raising me anymore. So I felt like a burden and it was something I refused to ever feel like again. So I set about taking care of my damn self. I paid for all things associated with my high school graduation, my college tuition and life during and after. I divorced my parents, essentially. So I grew up feeling like it was just me. In this deluded state I abused relationships inadvertently. Because I wasn't quite ready to be on my own but could hustle I got on by the skin of my teeth. I have lived in a friend's basement, I have almost been evicted more than once, I have stayed in relationships because I was more secure financially that way than if I was on my own. I have done a million things to survive, but rarely when I was younger, did I truly realize how the universe supported me, and in turn, I didn't always truly appreciate the help I was given. No matter how hard things became, I was ALWAYS ok. Nothing ginormous went wrong. I am so glad that I appreciate the gifts I am given now. LIfe is so much more rich when your recognize how much love is just waiting around you to lift you up.
I understand at this point that it is a futile attempt to do it on your own because you honestly can do NOTHING by yourself. Unless you sprung from nothing in the middle of nothing you have been helped from the moment someone ejaculated and another ovulated. Your ass has been supported. So get over yourself. There is the fact that you are sitting on something reading this, or you are using some expensive ass piece of equipment to read it on. People made those things. They were built to support you and anyone else that comes into contact with them. You travel on a road to get from home to wherever and those roads were built by peeps, and maintained by peeps. You get food that is grown and/or prepared by someone other than you. You have electricity. You have heat… You have support in so many ways that are so taken for granted. It is time to appreciate what you have been given and stay open to receive more.
When you resist the help that is available, when you deny that you are blessed you aren't able to create larger more expansive blessings. Or, if you have an issue with needing help you will be put in a position where you have no choice but to take it. We like to do things the hard way for some reason. The way isn't necessarily hard. If you are in a place where help is needed you know it. You have a little voice that can grow louder if you allow it. Let it… hear what it has to tell you. Thank everyone around you who helps you out. Needing help doesn't make you weak, it makes you human… and a part of the flow of life.
Receiving help is also a form of giving. You are giving to someone the opportunity to feel useful, supportive, loving. Why deny that from anyone? How can you help someone by allowing them to help you? Where are you denying someone the chance to be of assistance? Why?