HiHo! Recently I had a dream that I was flying. It was more like levitation than actual flying. I lifted off of the ground after seeing other people do it. It wasn't a dream that felt like I was asleep. It was more like an experience and it felt amazing. I was able to lift off once without much effort. It was like a switch just flipped and I was able to push away from the earth. The next time I tried it was harder. I had begun to question my ability…
Isn't that funny? I had already done it and yet I was afraid that it was a fluke and my doubt created the difficulty in realizing my ability to fly. Have you ever been in that situation before, questioning something you had already done? I imagine so, otherwise we wouldn't have a saying called beginner's luck. When we do something for the first time, there is no luck involved. There is openness, lack of judgement, belief, possibility, and faith. When we do it for the second time all of the previous ways of being are now strained a bit. We begin to judge if we can repeat or actually do it if we failed the 1st time. We aren't as open because we have a history and we are trying to do what we did instead of just doing it without pressure. We lack faith because we have, in our past somewhere, failed to do something consistently. Basically, we take away the things that make it possible and then decide that the only reason it happened was luck. The first time is always the greatest because we create obstacles to repeating it. It is no longer new and our curiosity turns to hope and expectation. How can we hold onto the curiosity with each attempt? How can we let go of the expectation so we can give rise to the exploration?
I believe that we have to work on how we think about EVERYTHING. Paying close attention to the number of times we question, doubt, or simply refuse to entertain something as a possibility. Being open isn't something that we automatically get back, there is effort involved. When we were children, most of us were open to learning things without reservation. We have had years and years of being told 'no' or 'you can't' or 'it won't work' by parents, friends, teachers, and the like. In turn we are where we are, with beginners luck as a truth and success as a 'hard to come by' experience. We have a lot of unlearning to do before we are open to each moment being new again. However, it is possible; it's possible quickly if you want it to be, and more importantly if you believe it to be.
So go on, believe that you can fly… you just might take off.