Hello! There is a voice inside of all of us… a knowing that we either are aware of and ignore or listen to… or it is so muffled we have a hard time believing that it exists at all. Our lives are filled with rules. Societal and personal, moral and random. We have stuffed our own free will and instinct in a box and have allowed what goes on outside to lead the way for us. We have spent so much time taking direction from outside, being told what is or isn't true. If we were tapped into our knowing as a child we were quickly pushed out of it. If we saw something that the grown-ups didn't see then it didn't exist. We knew that fairies were in the back yard and for a while the adults may have humored us, but at some point we were told to grow up. In this society growing up means ignoring what happens internally in order to fit into the external world in a way that isn't distracting, creative, disruptive, abnormal, extraordinary or outside of the box. The idea of believing something that hasn't been proven by some guys in white coats means you are weird, or different or "woo woo." By the way, those guys in the white coats don't know shit usually (or anymore than anyone else)… it's true. They are usually taking direction.
How is anything understood? How do we recognize the world? Who says one person sees it better than another or can understand it more? We may not see it in the same way but it doesn't mean that we don't see it, or understand it. When we let go of a right or wrong, should or shouldn't, yes or no and allow all things to be we are better able to see. When we let go of the hierarchy or who has the connection to the source of all, who is tapped into the universe and who isn't we find our own direct line. When we decide that we know, we know. When we practice trusting ourselves we take all of the life that we have as purposeful and personal. When we stop comparing our footsteps on the path with others, we are better able to see the road signs and the flowers and the scenery along the way on our own journey. When we stop forcing our attention and begin paying attention our voice has more of a chance to speak up and be heard.
The journey to knowing is different for everyone, however, discipline is indeed called upon in just about every case. Discipline over your thoughts, allowing what you want to hold truth as being and being diligent about nothing else permeating, for a period of time. When a thought that takes you away from your goal (knowing) comes up, having a way to pull yourself out of going into that thought and back into your knowing is necessary. For example, when a thought comes up for me that isn't my truth (that I am where I am supposed to be) I begin to sing. I don't have time to allow thoughts in that undermine my knowing. In my quiet moments, in the moments where the only focus is on me by myself, nothing is "wrong" or out of balance. So if I perceive things being out of balance I can quickly balance them by thinking differently. Those thoughts and those feelings around those thoughts change what I see and experience internally and externally.
So, start with you. Your thoughts. Your knowing is there, waiting for you to turn the volume up and listen to it speak… teach… love.